First week of the new semester is always the time u can just chill in your room and instead of rushing from one class to another for whole day. 2016 is a roller-coasted ride which brought the happiness and sorrows memories but its okay, like what people say: you need sunshine and rain to grow and after all the world outside are even more wicked and hypocrite than u can imagine.
Seriously, it always best to put yourself first in process of doing a task because human sometimes can be seem to be a little selfish and easily taken for granted if you helped them numerously. I learned my lessons today on this matters: some human beings are always depending on people help regardless on the inconvenient that person might be and felt offended if the person reject it once although he/ she might already helped you for several times with no complaint.
I never been so pissed before throughout my life (except for the argument with my bf but ya i have to admit its both parties have to be blamed with the words used are not wise and lets just not enter this issue again). Honestly as her junior, I helped her all the way from her final year till she entered the job world and finished her internships. Its not that I'm expecting her for pay back because eventually I did it all willingly as a friend and as a junior. However, I hope to gain respect when I rejecting for like once after all those helps I offered. Respect is all I need and you fail to do so. The task that you want me to do is risky because u guys did it for your own sake and willing to take the risk, but how you can expect me to do and eventually is not my own sake. I rejected it few times with nice way and politely but she just throw her temper on me with "yorr". As all Malaysians know, "yorr" is a expression of impatient and very, i say it again very upset with one's answer which not fulfilling on what demanded/ expected.
Please, I'm not bragging myself on how noble I did for someone since I agreed on helping. But seriously? Do I deserve such responds after all I did for you? If I'm being so selfish, I wouldn't agree to help you from the beginning. I really don;t deserve such treatment who don't appreciate what I did and taking it for granted. If the situation become vise versa, will you do the same for me? I bet you can't answer it my darling.
So, I reply her on how I felt and block her. People might say: why are you being so mean? You can talk it out and solve it. "No, I have enough of her. If she has a conscious mind, she wouldn't throw a temper on me after i rejected it nicely. And she will just keep begging for my help. For goodness sake, let me just be peace with my decision and I don't really care anymore on how you judge me because the people around me felt the same way as I do.
"Saying yes is not right. Saying no is not always wrong."
FIGHT FOR YOUR OWN RIGHT AND HOW YOU DESERVED TO BE TREATED.
